Losing grip, missing my baby~ :'(

Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby?
Right now I feel invisible to you
Like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say

I was left to cry there
Waitin' outside there
Grinnin' with a lost stare
That's when I decided

Why should I care?
'Cuz you weren't there
When I was scared
I was so alone
You, you need to listen
I'm startin' to trip
I'm losin' my grip
And I'm in this thing
Alone

Am I just some chick
You placed beside you
To take somebody's place?
When you turn around
Can you recognize my face?
You used to love me
You used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't okay

I was left to cry there
Waitin' outside there
Grinnin' with a lost stare
That's when I decided

Why should I care?
'Cuz you weren't there
When I was scared
I was so alone
You, you need to listen
I'm startin' to trip
I'm losin' my grip
And I'm in this thing alone

Cryin' out loud
I'm cryin' out, loud
Cryin' out loud
I'm cryin' out
Open your eyes
Open up wide

Why should I care?
'Cuz you weren't there
When I was scared
I was so alone

Why should I care?
'Cuz you weren't there
When I was scared
I was so alone

Why should I care?
If you don't care
Then I don't care
We're not goin' anywhere

Why should I care?
'Cuz you weren't there
When I was scared
I was so alone

Why should I care?
If you don't care
Then I don't care
We're not goin' anywhere

Hhmm.. why?

aku takut yang di sayang akan pergi.. aku takut untuk mempercepat waktu.. kalau nantinya aku akan bersedih, lebih baik di perlambatkan waktunya.. aku sedih gak tau mau gimana... aku takut kehilangannya,walau sekarang dia ada disini.. oh darling i wish you are here.. but, why are you boy? why are you so far away? i miss our memories, i'm afraid to missing you again, again and again.. i need you, i need you, more and more each day.. aku gak tau apa yang sebenernya terjadi yaaa. aku cuma bisa nunggu kamu, dan aku rasa hanya beberapa lama.. selang penyakitku yang mengganas, hhmm.. i hope you are here, you like last time.. i wanna like last time like our beauty memories. i very sad.. i don't want to miss you.. :(

BIOLA HEHOHAI..

Hhmm.. akhirnya aku memutuskan untuk les biola!
susah gak yaaa? coba dulu deh..
tadinya mau drum tapi pihak keluarga mendukung biola atau piano..
oke laah yaa aku turutin kali ini.. hihi.

Aku udah sedikit2 tau tentang biola,
dan ada beberapa biolist yang aku sukaaaaa bangeett!!
yaaa misal, Clarissa Tamara dari Indonesia.
Vanessa Mae dari Rusia.


ini Clarissa :)








kalo yang ini Vanessa


cantik khan?? apalagi permainannya, KEREN ABIS



dan ada BIOLA yang aku mau, semoga aja kalo aku dah master nanti..
Aku di beliin yang kayak gini, kalo di beliin..
JANJI GAK RUSAKIN hehehee..

ini diaaaaa, taaraaaa!!
biola kristal, semoga aja bisa di beliin kayak gini..
Hhhmmm :)








Do'a in aku sukses yaa, Wish Me Luck!!
naah target ku yang sekarang ini..
lagu pertama yang mau ku pelajarin itu.,
"happy birthday song" heheheii...

mau tau kenapa?!
karna bulan maret, tepatnya 19 MARET 2010
mau ada yang birthday getooh hahaiii..
namanya Madani Arif Hidayat Kartawijaya..
hahaha.. do'a in deh biar semuaa nya berjalan lancaar!!
AMIN. :)

sialan banget

eeeeeehhhhhhhhhh please dong jangan gtu,
perkataan lu bikin gua sediiiiiiiiih banget!!!!

gue bukan apa yg lo bilang.
lu kok ngomong gtu bikin gue beteeee!!!
bikin gua jadi ngk semangat hiduppp.

lo bilang gue anak penyakitan, lemah, cemen.
tapi gue rasa NGGKK!!!!! lo yg kayak gtu.
lo yg lemah, gue yg kuat.
buktinya gue bisa dapet angka terjauh main tolak peluru!
kyk gtu masih mau lo bilang lemah????
SEKUAT APA SIH LO HAH???
HERAN GUA!!!!

gue harap omongan lo2 pada berbalik ke kalian sendiri!!!
TERSINGGUNG gua lu ngomong gtu,
ngeremehin gue banget tau gaaakkk!!!
gue dibilang anak nyusahin pulaa :"(

udaahlaah susah ngomong sama anak keras kepala kayak lu!!!

Tentang Cinta Dalam Hidupku <3

Tatap matamu bagai busur panah..
Yang kau lepaskan ke jantung hatiku..
Meski kau simpan cintamu masih..
Tetap nafasku wangi hiasi suasana..
Saat ku kecup manis bibirmu..
Cintaku tak harus, miliki dirimu..
Meski perih mengiris-iris segala janji..
Aku berdansa diujung gelisah..
Di iringi syahdu lembut lakumu..
Kau sebar benih anggun jiwamu..
Namun kau telah...menuai buah cintaku,
Yang ada hanya sekuntum rindu..
Malam-malamku bagai malam seribu bintang Yang terbentang di angkasa bila kau disini 'Tuk sekedar menemani,'tuk melintasi wangi Yang s'lalu tersaji di satu sisi hati...

He Is The Best In My Life <3












Muthii <3>